I'm savoring this moment... the hubby just left with the 4-year old... he took her to the park to fly a kite and here I am in total quiet, just me and cats. So nice!
I stay home with our daughter and spend all-day, everyday here since we only have one car and the hubs takes it to work. SO you'd think the last thing I'd wanna do is sit here as usual, but the fact that it's completely void of KID NOISE makes it feel like pure heaven right now ;)
Hmm... so writing the blog is actually a little bit of a procrastination... because even though I'd really love to nap or lay on the couch and read I think I need to use this precious alone time wisely and get some exercise done. I can workout here in front of the tv and Wii pretty much any day with my daughter here, but she tends to take alot of the fun out of it. Either she's fussing because I put in Zumba and she wants Gold's Gym Dance Workout OR she waits until I'm really into the workout and gross and sweaty to inform me that she's hungry or needs help in the bathroom or any number of annoying things.
Anyhoo - I guess the moment has been savored and now it's time to get up and move my booty in relative peace for once :)
2/23/2013
2/19/2013
Awkward
Oh how I detest those awkward little situations that seem to arise day after day... awkward misunderstandings, awkward mis-communications... awkward feelings that arise when I'm asked to do things that just make me really uncomfortable.
As a freelance designer I find myself cringing and getting hot around the ears when I have to discuss money matters with my clients. I dread billing and actually lose sleep when bills are late, knowing I will have to send a payment reminder. I feel strangely guilty about charging money even though that's the basis of doing business. Is it just me? Why do I feel so weird about discussing my hourly rate with new potential clients?
And then there's the awkward moment when I'm asked to design or illustrate something totally out of my comfort zone or something I find really ridiculous... but it's work, and that's why I'm here... to work. UGH. If there's anything at all that I miss about being employed by a company, it's the comfortable distance from clients' questions and billing. Maybe I'm just not cut-out to freelance? But I have no choice but to suck it up and handle all of this - I've already been doing this on my own for over 6 years now... shouldn't it get easier?
There's also the personal side of awkward that comes from family and friends... asking the impossible (well, the impossible for me) and not understanding why I have to decline. I find myself hiding from Facebook just to avoid the inevitable awkward moment when I have to try to explain why I can't go here or there for this or that reason. For the most part, my reasons are due to lack of money and unwillingness to leave my daughter with a babysitter (ever - is that weird?) but also from my anxiety disorder, which people simply don't understand.
Anyhoo - one good thing has come from all this awkwardness... I decided to make an "AWKWARD" necklace next time I have pendants fabricated for the VoxDolly shop. Surely I'm not the only person who feels this on a regular basis... and why not own up to it by wearing it on myself as a necklace? Maybe I'll make some dolly-sized versions too.
Sweet inspiration... at least that's an area of my life that doesn't feel weird or awkward.
As a freelance designer I find myself cringing and getting hot around the ears when I have to discuss money matters with my clients. I dread billing and actually lose sleep when bills are late, knowing I will have to send a payment reminder. I feel strangely guilty about charging money even though that's the basis of doing business. Is it just me? Why do I feel so weird about discussing my hourly rate with new potential clients?
And then there's the awkward moment when I'm asked to design or illustrate something totally out of my comfort zone or something I find really ridiculous... but it's work, and that's why I'm here... to work. UGH. If there's anything at all that I miss about being employed by a company, it's the comfortable distance from clients' questions and billing. Maybe I'm just not cut-out to freelance? But I have no choice but to suck it up and handle all of this - I've already been doing this on my own for over 6 years now... shouldn't it get easier?
There's also the personal side of awkward that comes from family and friends... asking the impossible (well, the impossible for me) and not understanding why I have to decline. I find myself hiding from Facebook just to avoid the inevitable awkward moment when I have to try to explain why I can't go here or there for this or that reason. For the most part, my reasons are due to lack of money and unwillingness to leave my daughter with a babysitter (ever - is that weird?) but also from my anxiety disorder, which people simply don't understand.
Anyhoo - one good thing has come from all this awkwardness... I decided to make an "AWKWARD" necklace next time I have pendants fabricated for the VoxDolly shop. Surely I'm not the only person who feels this on a regular basis... and why not own up to it by wearing it on myself as a necklace? Maybe I'll make some dolly-sized versions too.
Sweet inspiration... at least that's an area of my life that doesn't feel weird or awkward.
2/14/2013
Happy "Ballemtimes" Day!!
My daughter Willow is four and a half, and is extremely excited to celebrate "Ballemtimes Day" today... especially after seeing what her thoughtful Daddy left for her and Mommy to enjoy {pictured to the right.}
She gave me a gift - her own little red monster truck toy {have no idea where that came from} which she presented to me saying, "Happy Ballemtimes, Mommy... look, it's red!"
Right now she's coloring a special pink heart-shaped card for Daddy, which is an awesome way to keep her out of my hair just long enough to check my emails and *hopefully* finish this post! While my hubby and I {together exactly 15 years and 2 days} pretty much stopped with the Valentine antics years ago, having our little boogie-butt around has made silly "Hallmark" holidays like this a bit more fun again.
The fact that SHE gets excited about it makes the day more exciting for us. She gives us a reason to buy chocolates and cupcakes... to pull out the red and pink construction paper and make colorful little "Ballemtimes" for each other... and to feel a little less jaded by the gross consumer-frenzy aspect behind this so-called holiday.
2/13/2013
Just Blogging About Blogging
I'm such a lazy blogger... not just now on my brand new Vox Dolly blog, but with every blog I've started in the past (and believe me, there have been MANY) I've struggled to keep at it regularly. But this one is special. Important. And I will force myself to keep at it until it becomes a natural part of my day (or at very least, my week) so that I don't drop yet another blog into obscurity.
But who are we kidding? It's a brand new blog and is starting off in obscurity, LOL.
I've also been a bit reluctant to write because this horrible little broken finger has pretty much halted all Vox Dolly progress for the time being and I can only rant about the finger so much before I have to change the title to "The ZOMBIE FINGER Chronicles" or something. It's so frustrating to open up a new shop, new website and new blog only to have to suddenly stop and nurse a ridiculous injury just days later. ARG!
Anyhoo - despite the lack of awesome ground-breaking content I'm happy I made time today to check in and post. It's not easy creating a new habit out of blogging, especially when there's not much going on... so I'm off to browse the Blythe Kingdom forum and get my dolly juices flowing again. TTFN!
But who are we kidding? It's a brand new blog and is starting off in obscurity, LOL.
I've also been a bit reluctant to write because this horrible little broken finger has pretty much halted all Vox Dolly progress for the time being and I can only rant about the finger so much before I have to change the title to "The ZOMBIE FINGER Chronicles" or something. It's so frustrating to open up a new shop, new website and new blog only to have to suddenly stop and nurse a ridiculous injury just days later. ARG!
Anyhoo - despite the lack of awesome ground-breaking content I'm happy I made time today to check in and post. It's not easy creating a new habit out of blogging, especially when there's not much going on... so I'm off to browse the Blythe Kingdom forum and get my dolly juices flowing again. TTFN!
2/03/2013
Free Printables - Food Packaging Galore!
WOW - there's a huge gallery full of free printable food items for dolls... all kinds of packages to stock your dollhouse kitchen like boxed cake mix, animal cookies (as seen to the right), pasta, soda and even beer, LOL. I even noticed a haircolor box, which would be really cute in a doll's bathroom and a bag of charcoal for dollies with grills.
Here's the link! Food Mini Printables
2/01/2013
Veruca Says Hello
Veruca in her custom VoxDolly necklace
This is my newest dolly girl, Veruca... a factory RBL with fair skin, special chips, ultra thick/soft lashes and long crazy curls in Thumpty Thump's bright purple. I haven't been able to do any customization yet, but I'm loving her as she is for now anyways. Eventually I'd like to do some sandmatting but will probably leave her makeup in tact - it's just too pretty! I also prefer girls who are boggled with sleep eyes so that's on the list, too.
She's wearing a custom heart necklace with her name engraved into it (something I can do for you through the VoxDolly shop!)... it's a bit large for a necklace, so eventually I'll use it as a pull charm for her with new strings. She's also in a shirt/dress I ordered custom made by the talented Maggie Ann of BlytheKingdom @ Etsy - I love the super simple lines and casual style... it's perfect for showing off the VoxDolly pendants. I also got one in white and will probably be going back for more when I can afford to!
So this is Veruca... I haven't figured out her personality yet, except that she's a bit more girly-girly than my other dolls. I can't wait for this broken finger situation to be over so I can get to work on her!
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